d life of d.S.1

I m vy lookin 4ward 4 dis time holiday… cz i think i need time 2 consider.. time 2 consider wat? time 2 consider myself 2wards my study attitude. nowadays, mayb these few years, i hv been strugglin in my studies..

mayb sth wrong wv my study style. i used 2 b vy stubborn n don wanna change my study attitude, n now since i m not so stubborn anymo, i m willing 2 giv myself a chance 2 change my study attitude n my attitude 2wards study.

dulu, i don tek studies seriously, i jz play play n think if i hv done my bez, i will b d bez.. bt dis thing wont reli apply here if u DON DO UR BEZ when u r revising n studyin b4 d test. well, dat is me.. owes playin in wateva things i m doin.. i wont pressure myself.

even in d debate competition, d referees say i m not serious enough, n i m not tekin d debate competition seriously. jokin around, create jokes, small small actions.. haha, well, i make d whole atmosphere cheerful. dis is d atmosphere i wan, relaxin n cheerful, no pressure, jz smiles n laughters everywhere. i dono whether my frens feel d atmosphere o not.. hohoho

i owes tell myself, get serious when is needed, get playful if d condition allows. well, so far i only c myself being serious in relationships  especially in helpin frens, when playin big futbo matches, when handling a big project. n wheneva i do those serious things, sometimes i realize pp r scared of me n i will get hot tempered easily.

mayb dis is wat i call EQ, emotional intelligence…haha, sometimes i don wanna get too serious oso in my studies, cz i don wanna accept d disappointment n d failure. it gonna b vy hurt once u study vy vy hard n d results r not there 4 u… well, dis "tek it relaxinly’ is d attitude i learn when i m in SHS. owes in shs.. owes bout shs.. haha, sorry ar. i bgin 2 feel vy relaxed in SHS cz everythin looks vy relaxin.

only u urself determine d standard of pressure n ur standard of relaxation, in utp, some pp make it vy tense, some pp make it vy enjoyable, some pp make it vy borin, some pp make it vy meaningful.. different pp hv different style. some pp come here 2 study. they work reli hard, everyday holdin books, even goin 2 toilet oso hv 2 bring notes wv them. some pp, u can c them around everywhere, where we seldom find them in d room. n yet they got good results..

don tell me dat they don study, they did.. mayb they jz study at nite o watsoeva. 99% depends on ur hardworkin, 1% depends on ur intelligence, dis is wat i truly blieve. u will deserve how much u sacrifice. n now i hv not reli go 4 it, a lot of things, i think is a gift from heaven.. my spm result n my petronas scholarship.. dis r o gifts from heaven. i reli din pursue 4 it.

d thing i reli go 4 it is d jpa bt i din get it. in return i get d petronas scholarship which is considered as a better option if compared 2 jpa. many things start buggin my mind when i think of my own unserious attitude. even final exam i can oso tek it play playly.. n i reli hv 2 change dis attitude rite away.. change 2 wat? change 2 d way dat is "serious when needed bt remains cheerful"

wat m i tokin bout? haha. bt durin dis mid sem break, i gota think bout it. bt i think i no need 2 think bout it. i hv 2 change.. ehem. i choose 2 change la. change my thinkin only.. only change my attitude 2wards study.

I don jz come here study n go home n 4get bout things. i tek it home wv me… 2day i m goin bek, bt o my frens r hvin their physics test. n i hv 2 sit 4 it afta i come bek from mid sem break. so durin d holiday, i hv 2 work hard on my physics. gotta work hard on every subject.. lulu lulu. vy scared dat i will bcom sot sot 1 day, haha bt nvm. i got a bunch of nice n carin frens over here. "when things don go ur way, u hv a whole bunch of frebs dat will bek u up", thanks 4 dis quote, ml.

thanks 4 givin me time 2 change.. i will try 2 get over it. i m willin 2 let u change me, A+, n i m willing 2 change 4 u…

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