d life of d.S.1

Dis few days, i hv been very confused.. very confused bout my own personality.. i even like lost. haha, not so serious la. bt i feel confused. thinking bout my stand, my point. considerin bout some of my attitudes n personality.

i hv been asked by a few of my frens 2 change my attitude, try 2 b mo selfish n try 2 put myself ahead of other pp. pooh, dis is a tough 1. it’s completely contrast wv d attitude i hv. i muz b mo selfish? y? isnt it good where everybody owes considerate 4 other pp instead of themselves? d world would b a better place 2 live, there wont b so much crime n mental block in d society..

den i think of dis story where i hear very very early when i was young. perhaps it’s d 1st story i heard when i attend d sunday class in d church.. hehe. n i feel d story is quite meaningful 4 me especially when i m lost in my thinkings… d story is:

one nite, a man was dreaming, den an angel took him 2 a place where there was 2 rooms. actually those rooms r dining rooms. he went in d 1st room, when he opened d room, he was shocked 2 c dat it was in a mess, food, tables, and chairs everywhere..

he oso saw many pp in d room, wv anger n envy in their eyes. their hands were handcuffed. actually it was dinner time and they were hvin dinner, and d food is properly served on d table. their greediness turn whole dining room apart. they were merebut-rebut d food, they wanna eat o d food.. they were arguin n strugglin among themselves jz 4 d food.

d pp in d room 1 were very rude, angry wv flames in their eyes. later, they started 2 fight n throw d food around in d room. they cant fight as their hands were handcuffed. they jz cursed each other wv foul language n throw d food around.. d situation is very chaotic, kelam kabut. in d end, nobody hv d chance 2 eat as they were too bz fightin over d food. d whole atmosphere in room 1 is fulled wv envyness, angryness n unconsideration.

den d man was very disappointed n he closed d door. d angel took him 2 another room, room 2. d man don dare 2 open d 2nd door, as he was scared dat room 2 will b d same as room 1. bt, d angel calmed him n he opened d room 2.

hoho, room 2 was clean n there were sound of joy n hepiness in d room. he can feel d serenity n calmness in room 2.den he looked at d pp in room 2. 2 his astonishment, their hands were oso handcuffed like those in room 1, bt their situation were completely different from those in room 1.

there was no food in d floor, d condition was very clean. d pp were feedin each other. as their hands were handcuffed, it was quite difficult 4 them 2 eat by themselves, so they helped each other by feeding each other. there were xpressions of joy n hepiness in their eyes.

they were chattin politely among themselves. it was very serene n peaceful. everybody was enjoyin d dinner. none of them were cursin o fightin like those in room 1. room 2 n room 1 was completely different. d man felt very hepi n calm when he saw d situation. den, a man from room 2 asked d man 2 join them 4 d dinner. bt d man rejected politely n said dat he got sth else needed 2 b done. n he left room 2 wv a hepi mood, touched by d pp. d atmosphere was helpful, calm, peaceful, serene n considerate.

den d angel xplained 2 d man, actually room 1 is hell, while room 2 is heaven. d man thought 4 a lito while n agreeded wv wat d angel told him. now i ask everybody, which room do u prefer, of cz everybody will say room 2.. as there were hepiness n peace in it.

i dono y i thought of dis story. i wanna live in heaven, so dat’s y i wanna b like those in room 2, not too selfish, owes think 4 others, considerate, helpin those who face difficulties. i don wanna live in hell, i don wanna b selfish, i don wanna b angry wv anybody , i don wanna hate anybody…

i jz wanna make everybody feel com4table, make them feel like they r livin in heaven, like those in room 2. i wanna help everybody when they face difficulties. i wanna c everybody hepi, everybody smilin, everybody …. hepi, dat is my wish thruout d whole year. wish everybody hepi n bahagia..

so, i wanna say sorry 4 some frens.. i cant change it. it requires a lot of time n courage 2 b a selfish person. i will try 2 b a lito bit selfish la.. hehe.. hope d p on earth wil b like those in room 2, not selfish.. n owes think  n put other pp ahead of themselves..

so, i still wanna b me, d.S.1.. hehe. i m clear of my stand n my personality now, i m not lost now… where m i? i m in heaven.. who m i? i m d.S.1

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