d life of d.S.1

Here is d review of my 2007. honestly, i think 2007 is a lucky year, cz i like d number 7, bt it turns out 2 b quite a lucky n troublesome year 4 me.. hehe, so 1 word 2 describe my 2007 is "magnificent".. here r some interesting things dat happen 2 me in 2007… hehe..

Bez fren i know: Taylor -> Colin Chong Wei Ming (somebody say he looks like my brother)

                         SHS -> Frederick Lee Yong Fong (everytime i com bek, he sure is d 1st person 2 call me out yumcha n organie some activities 4 us)

                        UTP -> Ting Sing Tat (hehe, he oso know how 2 speak foochow maer~~ so, owes speak wv him in uni)

Best on9 frens: Lee Shih Sian (haha, she’s d bez, i guess. everytime i got problem, i’ll tok 2 her on9. well, she provides good advices dat help me go thru difficult moment.. haha)

Proudest moment of 2007: when i mount d SHS stage 2 receive my last award (SPM award) as a SHS student. it’s my last chance.. i cry dat day

Saddest moment of 2007: when i leave Taylor. they oso hv an emo session. thanks, taylor S4, u guys reli r good frens.. nvr regret knowin u guys..

Hepiest moment of 2007: everytime i come bek.. it’s nice 2 b at home where can meet old frens playin futbo, yumcha, n visit school teachers n headmaster n frens in d church..

Craziest moment of 2007: goin wv a bunch of frens 2 proclaim d independence of malaysia in utp. we oso walk around d whole uni n shout Merdeka 2 every1.. we even scolded by other pp.. haha

Most regret moment of 2007: when i leave SHS.. reli.. i reli wanna stay wv SHS n c how i can help d school n wat will i achive in school.. bt now, i can jz help SHS as a senior n old boy..

Scariest moment of 2007: when i was trapped in d lift 4 an hour.. pooh, imagine 19 person inside d lift. bt anyway, d moral lesson was shortened 2 1 hour only.. hohohohohoho

Best thing i lov bout my school: Every staffs.. n oso Stamford Bridge of SHS.. hehe

Johnny’s book of record: i tek planes 20 times dis year.. makes me d most xpensive person.. haiz.. reli waste a lot of $$

Most regret deeds: actually i score mo den 100 goals bt i din count cz d goals i score in utp r not challenging.. it’s simple abc.. so i din count..

D goal i like: when i slide n score d bo at same time. now i ady score 7 goals like dat. 5 times in sports complex, subang; 1 time in utp; 1 time in my beloved SHS~~~ i reli enjoyed dat.. hehe..

Favourite Chinese song: 无条件为你 - 梁静茹

Favourite English song: You’ll b in my heart - Phil Collins

D thing i dislike most: Pp talkin rumours n spreading it.. (reli cant tahan.. something fake can oso bcom true…)

Gifts from Heaven:

1. when i score d winning goal 4 my futbo team in d competition, d goal was scored from d middle half. i still remember how i score. d bo was strucky by my rite foot n d bo accelerate n slow accelerate n slow, n it enters d net. d most meaningful part is d match is against d former champion.. another meaningful part is dat we r d champion dat year. n lastly we emerged as champion afta 4 years of losing.. hehe

2. when d SPM result was announced. i count myself as very very lucky.. cz i m not so good. i think i din deserve d result.10A1, 1A2, 1B4. so i will thank god cz he makes impossible things possible. i remember everytime i pray i say: god, i don wanna pray 4 good results, i jz wanna pray 4 great determination n hardworkin in myself. n he reli answers my prayer..

3. Petronas scholarship. actually i put a lot of effort in JPA. i prefer JPA cz JPA can go overseas. bt petronas cant.. bt i reli hv 2 thank god again, cz once again, he makes impossible things possible. haha, durin d educamp. actually our school SHS got 6 students goin 4 d educamp. n where there’s 2 johnnys, there’s chaos. me n another johnny + frederick fool around in d camp. haha, we even shh by other participants. we jz play play inside. n i still remember there’s UEFA Champions League at dat time. 1 is manu vs roma where manu score 7 goals thrashing.. n another is chelsea vs valencia, where essien’s last minute decisive goal makes chelsea thru wv 2-1 score. n i was d only participant who went out 2 d coffee shop 2 watch d match. n d interview even worse. i dono hv 2 tok bout d things on d paper, i was sendiri syok sendiri tellin them my biodata n my school till i was asked 2 stop n they ask me xplain d things on d paper.. memalukan saje.. bt anyway, i get d petronas scholarship.. reli thanks god.

4. i hope d 4th gift of heaven will come 2 me soon gua…

Gifts from Heaven.. sometimes, i reli like God, n we hv 2 pray 2 him.. everybody has his o her own religion, we muz stick 2 our religion n nvr doubt his ability as he can make impossible things possible..

He’s bek.. when i heard d news, i don quite believe it. bt my fren assured me dat he’s bek.. i oso don quite believe her somehow.. bt dat nite, i saw him in d church.. wvout any doubt, i go 4ward n ask him. he’s about d close his car door, i go top him n ask him.

d.S.1: merry christmas n hepi new year. u sure u r comin bek o not?

He: (surprised 2 c me poppin out) mayb i’ll b bek

d.S.1: eh, u don cheat me o~~~

He: haha, willl i cheat pp??

d.S.1: (too hepi n shake his hand) reli? i m so hepi, lookin 4ward 2 c u soon!!! (keep on shaking…….)

mama: johnny, it’s time 2 go lo~~

d.S.1: bye, i hope dis is true… i hope u r reli comin bek.

He: (jz smile at me) Hepi new year…

woo~~~ he’s still cool as ever.. still handsome, bt got wrinkles on his face liao lo, bt dat doesn’t matter. as long as he still knows me n as long as he’s COMIN BEK!!!!!! yo, SHS frens! i can assure u dat he’s bek.. if wrong, den don blame me.. dis is my own analysis, my own perception, my own interpretation, bt i can feel it’s true..

toking 4 so long, who is he leh?? hehe..he’s my beloved ex-principal of sacred heart, Mr. Stephen Tan. yep, he’s stephen tan, it’s true.. no mistake.. i repeat again.. stephen tan..aiyoyo, i so kepo de.. yep. he’s bek.. i trully very hepi n overjoyed. d rite man 4 SHS..

rememberin some incidents dat happen long long time ago. he’s d 1st eva person 2 giv me d impression "wow, 1 day, i wanna b like him" . my form 3 dat year, he comes 2 shs. hmm, year 2004… yep. d 1st eye when i look at him, wow, i reli respect him, dono how 2 describe it. bt he’s very kacak n most important thing, he got sth..威 in himself. how 2 say ar.. he got "power". aiyoyo, not like power ranger like dat can transform ka. bt 4 sure, if u c him b4, u’ll oso feel d same way i feel.

d 1st time i hear his voice is when 1 time, afta semester test, me n my whole gang of fren playin futbo in d undeer progress "stamford bridge’ foutbo field, den we o scolded by him..noty.. we r so noty. playin in d grass. he scolded dat d grass might die if we keep on steppin on d hvnt fully grown grass.. well dat is d 1st time..

den durin d assembly,i will pay full attention. n another thing is dat, b4 d assembly, he’ll sure pray 1st b4 we start our assembly cz we r a catholic mission school.. n his voice is so humble n powerful. i reli enjoy listening 2 his voice.. wulala, reli good! n at dat moment, i was reli proud of myself being a SHS student, very proud of my school.

den at dat yaer oso, our form 3 batch was asked 2 assist in 2 big sports events in d stadium tun zaidi, 1 is d division level n state level if not mistaken.. n in d division level, i was d head of d cleanliness team. pickin up rubbish is our duties. we muz arrive early n b d last 1 2 leave d stadium. we muz oso go patrol around 2 pick up d rubbish 2 keep d stadium clean.

i remember d last day, he belanja o of us makan d food in d food stall outside d stadium as we r d last team 2 leave, dat reli gives me a strong impression. he oso compliments us 4 doin a brilliant job, sayin dat he din even saw rubbish in d floor.. hoho.

den pmr result come out, well, he congratulated everybody n oso com4ted those who din score good results.. dat was nice of him. n form 4 year, my bziest year. i took part in many activities mayb jz 2 sharpen myself. i remember he tells me dat, he c me as a future leader, wow, trully flattered.. seriously.

in form 4, he oso selected me 2 represent SHS 2 attend a camp organised thruout in malaysia. it’s a leadership training. wow, i like d chance.. cz whole sibu only got 3 students being selected n i m 1 of those lucky pp. i reli thank him 4 dis opportunity n i reli learned a lot..

den when in d bginnin of year 2006, i was very disapointed wv d school 4 arrangin d class.. i dono la. bt dat year i reli cause a lot of problems in d school 4 challengin d authority. i know i m wrong 2 order d school 2 do sth bt i jz hv 2 speak out. cz i feel dat there is another good way of solvin d problem. i like d school, i don wan d school 2 b in chaos where many students r unhepi. i go n look 4 him, n he say he’ll ask d PK 1 2 arrange d problem.

bt @ d same moment, i oso heard dat he’ll b leavin SHS 4 kanowit n he’ll bcom d education department of sarawak o wat wat la.. not sure.. i go n tell d PK 1. at 1st, she say she will change d system. bt in d end, she ask my add-math teacher 2 tell me dat she is unhepi wv my rude attitude n she wont change d system. n my add-math teacher advices me 2 tok politely..

ei, i reli tok politelly 2 PK 1 laer. i oso hv saksi, eugene ling, he’s there oso wv me 2 approach PK1. mayb jz PK1 is jz sensitive gua. i reli besong. i ady control my anger at dat time liao, like dis fitnah saya. den i directly go n look 4 PK1. i jz ask her, hv i been rude at dat time? she din say i m rude, bt she jz say dat i shud b polite… hng~ bt in d end, i oso dono y i say sorry 2 her. i din do wrong… n she say she will change d system. 2 my expectation, she din change..

haha, ok la,. i don k so much cz stephen tan will b leavin. so, our school oso try our bez 2 keep him in d school. we oso ask d pats 2 sign on a piece of paper askin him 2 stay.. bt we failed. b4 he goes, he promise he’ll bring on another good principal, yep, he’s d present principal,, mr vincent liong who is another good principal.

in d end, he’ll hv 2 leave. bt anyway, i wish him o d bez. in d last assembly ceremony, our school organised a special assembly specially 4 him. many students giv him presents. d atmosphere was very berat hati, i think every students would want him 2 stay. cz he reli changes a lot of things in shs. our school used 2 b called samseng school, bt afta he comes, he changes d nickname. wat amazes me is dat, o those disciplined students oso turn good.. it’s trully amazing, can enter programme ripley’s blieve it o not liao lo.

his personality, his advice, his wise words, his power reli amazes me.. he reli changes a lot in me.. he makes me proud of my school, he makes my heart united wv my school n sing d school rally loudly n semangatly. everythin is instilled in me by him. so i reli respect him a lot…

n now he’s bek.. i hope he’s reli bek n he can continue 2 serve in his bloved school.. i was quite regret oso, cz 4 not studyin lower 6 at d bginin of d year n pursue 4 petronas scholarship. bt wat i can do now is jz pray 4 d school n try 2 help out as old boy of sacred heart anytime when needed. so far, i hv done my bez as an old boy.. inspirin teachers n young juniors 2 lov d school.

i still remember my 1st impression, i wanna b like stephen tan. hv d 威 in myself. i oso tryin 2 learn dat, bt it’s quite hard 4 me.. bt i’ll try my bez. i nvr doubt myself. n i will oso b like him, bek 4 SHS.. cz SHS is where i belong.. ihope dis wont change.. n if i reli comes bek, i wanna change d name "Sacred Heart Old Student Association (SHOSA)" 2 "Sacred Heart Patriot" organisation. bcz of d word old, it seems not nice. mayb patriot is nicer gua.??

so, mr stephen tan, o d bez 2 u!! we owes support u!!! i salute u!!! u r a very special person… may god giv u wisdom n holy spirit guide u in ur every doings, protect u n hope u will hv a healthy body 2 serve sacred heart school, bring out d bez from every students n make SHS recognised in national level..

wow, tamaknya saya.. hehe, sorry 4 writin too long, cz i m reli xcited bout dis.. memang saya sendiri high sendiri.. sorry.. hoehoe, bt u cant stop my mouth ~~~ dis is true me..

我有股冲动，

想把一张常发声的嘴巴，

上个拉环把它封闭，

轻率的发个誓愿，需个承诺，

胡乱出言，随便乱说，

不经意地把人心弄乱，无心地把人心弄伤。

那么的不经意，那么的轻易，

把人名弄伤，

那么的娇嫩，那么的柔，却是管不着的舌头。

主啊！我有股冲动，

我想对你说声对不起，

因为我觉得我很难控制我这张嘴，

就像一个难以阻止的一把抢，

但是，我所说的一切都是事实，

从不锦上添花，从不加盐加醋，从不相信谣言，从不拐弯抹角，

我只说我应该说的，坦率地说出正相，

虽然很容易伤到别人的心，但是我还是坚持我的风格。

我不是一个很出色的演员，

今天你看到的我的表情和脸色，

明天和后天以及明天的明天，

你将看到同样一张表情和脸色的我，

除非你用枪跪下指着我，

求我改变我所坚持的个人风格。

Christmas’s comin. i thought dis year will hv been a relaxin year where i can sit in my house, singin christmas song.. bt no. 1 phone call spoil my christmas mood.. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

d phone call asks me 2 do a drama on 22/12 in dataran sibu.. wulala~ it’s a grand celebration where d whole sibu can c my drama, bt it will b quite tiring as i only hv 3 days 2 prepare, nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

bt anyway, i promise my fren n i will do a drama on 22/12. afta i put down d phone, i was vy worried bout d drama, mayb i should not promise him 1st..  now i m invitin problems 2 myself.. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

i hv 2 do d props, d big house, d ships.. n it takes quite a long time, mayb a week 2 finish d props, bt how can i do it alone n finish it in a short time?? luckily i got a fren of mine who help me.. den i quickly think of my characters.. n inform o those who will b acting in d drama, nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

d story is about a flood. a boy who has been prayin hard 4 jesus 2 come 2 save him when d flood comes. 1st, was d sampan, den d motorboat, den d helicopter. d boy rejected d rescuers n say dat he is waitin 4 jesus 2 come 2 save him. in d end, he died, when in heaven, jesus tell him dat he has come 3 times, n y d boy din notice him. actually jesus r owes there 4 us when we r in trouble.nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

den d nex day, i rush 2 buy o d stuffs dat r required 2 make d props. can u imagine a motorcycle goin round d whole sibu buying big big sticks, wv lots of selotapes n papers. pooh, luckily i din fall, reli.. bt i was thinking i was quite stupid cz i can actually ask my fren 2 help me. bt i know dis is a last minute thing, n everybody don like last minute stuff. bt i bgin 2 think i m very stupid 4 agreein 2 help out.nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

den i ask my fren 2 help out 2 build d house. 2gether we build d house. we use 2 days complete it. wulala, it is a rush bt d house is quite well constructed, thanks 2 d 2 architects n bulders.. haha, tiong family conquers!! nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

den it’s time 4 practices n rehearsal, i was vy lucky cz my frens r o obedient n turn up 4 d practice, i m d director of d drama, n i felt they hv giv out their bez n they reli r good actors.. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

den, i go n look 4 sounds n music as bekground. pooh, i din sleep at nite, when i close my eyes, i will b thinking of d drama. can say dat i don hv good sleeps. bt special thanks 2 my fren dat hv been supportin me n givin me advices so dat i can continue d drama. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

den d rehearsal comes. i hv 2 ask a lorry 2 help us tek our props 2 dataran sibu . luckily there is a man whol help us. woo, thank him a lot.. i reli appreciate their help. when i reach d rehearsal place, i was quite angry, actually, cz d pp iin charge langsung din respect me n my frens. they keep askin other pp 2 rehearse n put our rehearsal in d last. we arrive at 9.30 am n we only rehearse at 11.30am. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

my frens r o involved in d workings, they hv 2 help 2 move d stages n do other stuff, preparin d mics, n o those loso loso stuff. haha. luckily it was our time 2 rehearse. they reli giv us a lot of comments. i was vy vy api dat time, cz who is d 1 doin d drama, if it’s them, they do la. if it’s me, den me la. y u giv so many comments. we ady finish d props ady, skrang baru u giv comments. if u wanna giv, u shud giv early ma. i was criticised badly dat day. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

haha, den when we go bek, we leave our stuff in d stage as our props r too big, when in d noon, d wind was big n it was raining.. our props r blown by d wind, another fren of mine help me 2 put d props in d changing room, when i receive his call, i go 2 dataran sibu 2 check on d props, only d cloth of our props r wet bcz of d rain, so i let it dry by dryin it wv a fan. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

d nite finally comes, there r a lot of pp in dataran sibu. pooh, such a big crowd. den when our act comes.. den we giv out our bez, i was at d side, givin body languages commands 2 my frens who act as actors, bt luckily they themselves r quite clever n flexible n know wat 2 do at d suitable time. i oso ask my sis 2 record down d whole drama, haha. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

afta d drama, every1 claps their hands n applause.. n actually d applause was not so loud as i hv expected. bt i oso hear some laughters n screams during d drama, as there r sikit unsur funny in my drama. bt, in d end, i receive mo compliments den critices. those who criticises me in d morning oso compliment me. haha, i m very proud of my frens.. nvr min, i do it 4 Jesus

haha, luckily everythin was over, i reli felt d presence of jesus by my side helpin n guiding me.. dat’s y i say, jesus i do it 4 u n u r there 2 assist me. i wanna say thanks 2 o my frens who r actors in d drama, 2 ho-ho, my fren who ask me 2 perform d drama, 2 kong-quan who is d magnificent architect, n my father who sponsor me d tools 2 help me, my mom who help me, supports me, my family who gives me ideas during d drama, A+ 4 givin me advices n supports dat i will continue on d project.

i reli wanna thanks every1 who saw d drama. every1 who giv their fullest supports 2 me, every1 who claps n applauses afta d drama. i reli lov d pressure as i used 2 hv in form 4. bt 1 thing 4 sure, i don like last minutes stuff, cz i cant enjoy d process, n everythin was done in a hurry. d newspaper oso publish our drama .. haha.. o compliments 2 my frens!!!

luckily i control my emotion n not 2 b too angry. i jz keep d feelings 2 myself, dat i wont suddenly scold my frens.. i m proud of my 圣家之母，你们是最棒的，但是要保持谦虚谦卑的态度，继续为主服务。学辉在此会继续为你们祈祷的！！我为你们感到骄傲！！！谢谢主，赞美主！！

merry christmas..

wat a bz christmas dis season.. everythin last minute announcement.. cant reject oso, jz hv 2 do it.. d climax part is 2molo, 22/12/07, in dataran Sibu where o d pp from Sibu will come 2 enjoy d festival.

n my drama will b on oso.. n i m d producer..hehe, i hope those pp will enjoy d drama, i m not tamak, i jz wan applause n claps from d audience.. n oso hope my frens n actors wont b overxhausted..

cz i know they hv reli put in their effort 2 come 4 d rehearsal everytime. so i hope they can reli do their bez. i don doubt them, i oso nvr doubt my own ability, i jz doubt d weather 2molo, hope it wont rain, cz it has been rainin these days..

i hvnt reli enjoy d holidays dis season, i can feel dis year is d most tiring year gua.. nope, i think mine form 4 life is mo tiring oso la

haha, so dis year is vy vy last minute tiring. jzz bcz of d sudden drama calling.. pooh, nvr min. i do it 4 God n oso my church. i reli don like last minute, cz feel like cant enjoy d process..

kk, gtg do d drama stuff.. still got time write blogs, aiyoyo..

hohohohhoho, merry-go-round christmas, whole sibu.. watchout, santa d.S.1 is comin 2 town wv his drama!!!!!

Dis few days, i hv been very confused.. very confused bout my own personality.. i even like lost. haha, not so serious la. bt i feel confused. thinking bout my stand, my point. considerin bout some of my attitudes n personality.

i hv been asked by a few of my frens 2 change my attitude, try 2 b mo selfish n try 2 put myself ahead of other pp. pooh, dis is a tough 1. it’s completely contrast wv d attitude i hv. i muz b mo selfish? y? isnt it good where everybody owes considerate 4 other pp instead of themselves? d world would b a better place 2 live, there wont b so much crime n mental block in d society..

den i think of dis story where i hear very very early when i was young. perhaps it’s d 1st story i heard when i attend d sunday class in d church.. hehe. n i feel d story is quite meaningful 4 me especially when i m lost in my thinkings… d story is:

one nite, a man was dreaming, den an angel took him 2 a place where there was 2 rooms. actually those rooms r dining rooms. he went in d 1st room, when he opened d room, he was shocked 2 c dat it was in a mess, food, tables, and chairs everywhere..

he oso saw many pp in d room, wv anger n envy in their eyes. their hands were handcuffed. actually it was dinner time and they were hvin dinner, and d food is properly served on d table. their greediness turn whole dining room apart. they were merebut-rebut d food, they wanna eat o d food.. they were arguin n strugglin among themselves jz 4 d food.

d pp in d room 1 were very rude, angry wv flames in their eyes. later, they started 2 fight n throw d food around in d room. they cant fight as their hands were handcuffed. they jz cursed each other wv foul language n throw d food around.. d situation is very chaotic, kelam kabut. in d end, nobody hv d chance 2 eat as they were too bz fightin over d food. d whole atmosphere in room 1 is fulled wv envyness, angryness n unconsideration.

den d man was very disappointed n he closed d door. d angel took him 2 another room, room 2. d man don dare 2 open d 2nd door, as he was scared dat room 2 will b d same as room 1. bt, d angel calmed him n he opened d room 2.

hoho, room 2 was clean n there were sound of joy n hepiness in d room. he can feel d serenity n calmness in room 2.den he looked at d pp in room 2. 2 his astonishment, their hands were oso handcuffed like those in room 1, bt their situation were completely different from those in room 1.

there was no food in d floor, d condition was very clean. d pp were feedin each other. as their hands were handcuffed, it was quite difficult 4 them 2 eat by themselves, so they helped each other by feeding each other. there were xpressions of joy n hepiness in their eyes.

they were chattin politely among themselves. it was very serene n peaceful. everybody was enjoyin d dinner. none of them were cursin o fightin like those in room 1. room 2 n room 1 was completely different. d man felt very hepi n calm when he saw d situation. den, a man from room 2 asked d man 2 join them 4 d dinner. bt d man rejected politely n said dat he got sth else needed 2 b done. n he left room 2 wv a hepi mood, touched by d pp. d atmosphere was helpful, calm, peaceful, serene n considerate.

den d angel xplained 2 d man, actually room 1 is hell, while room 2 is heaven. d man thought 4 a lito while n agreeded wv wat d angel told him. now i ask everybody, which room do u prefer, of cz everybody will say room 2.. as there were hepiness n peace in it.

i dono y i thought of dis story. i wanna live in heaven, so dat’s y i wanna b like those in room 2, not too selfish, owes think 4 others, considerate, helpin those who face difficulties. i don wanna live in hell, i don wanna b selfish, i don wanna b angry wv anybody , i don wanna hate anybody…

i jz wanna make everybody feel com4table, make them feel like they r livin in heaven, like those in room 2. i wanna help everybody when they face difficulties. i wanna c everybody hepi, everybody smilin, everybody …. hepi, dat is my wish thruout d whole year. wish everybody hepi n bahagia..

so, i wanna say sorry 4 some frens.. i cant change it. it requires a lot of time n courage 2 b a selfish person. i will try 2 b a lito bit selfish la.. hehe.. hope d p on earth wil b like those in room 2, not selfish.. n owes think  n put other pp ahead of themselves..

so, i still wanna b me, d.S.1.. hehe. i m clear of my stand n my personality now, i m not lost now… where m i? i m in heaven.. who m i? i m d.S.1

Something is easy 2 say bt hard 2 b done.. not something is very hard 2 say.. haha// very hard 2 say? i don think so.. i think something is easy 2 say, bt hard 2 get it done.. dis is more accurate

so don cincai say anythin if u urself cant get d thing done.. givin comments n criticisms r easy bt get it done is another matter.. pp ask u 4 criticism bt they only wan praise.. some of d pp act like dis. they only wan praise instead of criticism.

so, b4 u advise ur fren, better think properly if u can do it o not.. if u urself cant do it, den better don say out d advice. bt, if u feel dat ur idea is good, den u shud try 2 b humble n say out ur idea. speak wv confidence, don make other pp feel u’re very arrogant n proud.

sometimes i can feel dat some pp r crossin d limit in wat they r sayin bout other pp. some pp like 2 bekside(bekslash) d subject by criticisn d subject bhind d subject in front of d subject’s frens. dis is very hurt. sometimes, i feel bad 4 d person too when i c d person bekside his/her own fren..

den, d person will try 2 spread d rumours, addin spices, tomatoes, chillies, garlics, soya souces in order 2 make d criticisms mo interestin n tasty.. i jz cant stand dat.. sometimes, i rather keep quiet n not 2 tek part in d criticisms.. i don hv 2 blieve wat have been told, i got my own opinion, my own stand..

i owes open my ears 4 criticisms. bt i don k bout those stupid comments, i reflect n hope i’ll not repeat it ever again. so when my fren tellin my weak points 2 me, i will reli listen.. i m not a perfect man, bt i wanna b as perfect as i can.. dat’s y perfect practices make perfect..

being critical n destructive is a much mo appealin den praises.. some criticisms r made wvout brain. dat’s wat i call stupid comments.. so, it will b nice 2 silence those who hv been critical.  bt frankly speakin, i like 2 criticise pp.. if only i feel i can do better den d person, if not i will jz shut my mouth n grit my teeth.. thinkin of a better solution. dat’s y i like 2 help my frens.. cz we shud help each other.

bt u will not stop me from givin out comments. some pp say i m arrogant, some say i m too bossy, some say i m too good, some say i m too kepo, some say i m too childish.. so wat? i m not a good actor, wat u c on my face 2day,u’ll oso  it 2molo n d days afta 2molos unless u point me wv a gun n beg me 2 change my personality.

rumours hv been quite destructive. rumours make pp wear masks n pretendin in front of other pp. 4 eg., i hv heard a lot of bad things bout a pp, when i face d pp, i hv 2 act like i know nothin bout d pp. so, wat cause dis?/ rumours.. i reli don hate rumours..

if u reli hate some1, jz go in front of d person n say it loud. don bekside other pp. u may bekside a person, bt please la, don bekside n spread it 2 o ur frens.. n 4 d listeners.. please oso la. don easily blieve other pp, u hv 2 xperience it wv ur eyes, den baru u can certify dat d rumours r true o not.. n 4 d subject himself, try not 2 display out ur weakness out so dat pp wont hv rumours bout u..

bt frankly speakin, it’s very hard not 2 tok bad words bout other pp. seriously… bt i hope o dis thing wont happen again nex year.. seriously.. i reli hope those who likes 2 criticise please think b4 u tok..

i dono y i write so much bout dis things.. i wanna write mo, bt i remember wat my frens told me,, not 2 write 2oo much in m blogs..

haha, so i think i’ll stop here. bt i reli wanna continue.. haiya.. jz biarkan la. so, something r easy 2 say, bt very hard 2 get it done. bt please remember dis, i will owes sit on d fence, i wont climb inside d house, nor climb outside 2 d road.. i will jz sit in d mido till i hv figured out d truth, den i’ll make my decision based on my perception n time.

sorry 4 been very loso.. bt i reli hope there wont b any rumours nex year.. hope everythin will b fine n start o over again.. cz we r FRENS…. ———–> d.S.1

Rain, rain go away, come again another day,

rain rain go away, lito johnny wanna play….

afta i come bek from HK, i was shocked 2 c sibu dibanjiri flood.. wulala, i was in d plane watchin d scene.. looks like most part of sibu is in d water.. hoho..

luckily my house is in high area, so it is safe.. bt d sad part is i cant go 2 SHS 2 play futbo lo.. so sad.. i think my school oso flooded cz my school is in low area.. so hope it’s ok..

i folo my dad’s "ninja king" land cruiser car 4 a ride in d town area. aiyoyo, d flood reli very terrifyin.. i can oso c d water enter pp’s house.. some of them r cleanin d house.. some of them r pushin their bikes.. some of them r swimmin in d water..

it’s quite fun 4 some pp, n quite troublesom 4 some pp. i hope d water will subside soon.. so dat pp may celebrate christmas hepily.. n not 2 4get there is a christmas caroline in sibu dis saturday.. how r we goin 2 christmas caroline in d flood??

mayb dis year is d year dat we create d history, haha, christmas caroline in d flood usin kayaks.. hoho, dis will b  fun.. haha.

jz pray dat d flood will surut.. if not i cant go 2 play futbo in SHS laer..

flood flood go away, come again another day.

flood flood go away, lito johnny wanna play…

time flies.. reli.. so fast my life in UTP has ady over 1 sem.. i m thinkin wat hv i done in UTp so far..

2 words 2 describe my life in utp so far.. fast cz reli so fast, seems like i din learn anythin in utp.. haha. jz can feel dat everyday’s life is d same.. wake up, study, den come bek, sleep, do homework, dinner, take bath, den chat, den play den sleep again.. haiz.. reli boring n fast

furious, -> cz got so many things happen.. rumours n misunderstandings.. n oso got so many mouths around… dis is agressive.. totally furious.. so d conclusion 4 d 1st sem  is fast n furious..

i feel like i hv learn nothing in d 1st sem.. i think i hv been wastin a lot of time 4 unnecessary things..shud tek studies mo seriously.. bt i jz don tek studies seriously..so i think i hv 2 change my mentality 2wards studies.

hv 2 put studies ahead of everythin.. yep.. cant spend too much time doin other things.. bt i personally feel dat there r other many things which r mo important den studies.. i would put frens ahead of me lo.. 4 eg la, if dat time i m hvin my exam n 1 of my fren ask 4 my help on something.. of cz i will go help him.

studies?? not so important.. exams, not so important either.. frens.. super important.. dis is wat i hv been practisiin 4 a whole year.. 2007.. my life is bout others, not bout myself.. dat’s y i try 2 help out my frens whenever i can.. dat’s y i feel i hv learn nothing in 2007, bt i certainly learn how 2 tek k bout my frens lo.. hehe..

so, i hv 2 change my mentality n my attitude 2wards studies so dat i can both concentrate on studies n frens at d same time… i m thinkin, if i study hard, i can oso help my frens in their studies,, hmm dis is a good idea,bt hv 2 wait till i master d studies, which will not happen so fast cz i m not a good "studier" oso.. haha..

a lot of rumours created.. dono la y, pp like 2 listen 2 d rumours.. haha, i oso like 2 listen 2 rumours, bt i don like 2 tok bad words bout other pp.. i will jz try 2 avoid d topic n not 2 tersalah cakap other pp.

i jz don understand y some1 can jz bcz of 1 perkara n d some1 hate d whole group of pp.. dis is wat i call stereotypin, which i hv learnt in thinking skills.. u cant hv an initial judgement 2wards a person if u hvnt tok 2 d person.. i heard dat pp call me n my other 4 frens as a gang..

haha, dis is good n not good oso.. so, i think mayb nex year i muz change dis lo.. we r oso wrong la, owes stick 2 our own gang, bt we oso mix wv other gang lo, jz they din c nia.. haha. bt jz bcz of dis, my relationship btween me n my frens r now better..

mayb wanna xplainin sth oso la.. pp say me n my A.ch cant b 2gether bcz i argue wv her.. yep, i cant deny dat i hv  argument wv her bt dis thing has been solved.. d punca is my own fault lo, sayin out d things dat i suppose not 2 say.. dis is called stupidity of myself..

at 1st, she is angry la. how i know?? of cz i know la, cz from d day i perhati her, durin d moral exam, she din even look at my side during d test.. i was jz sittin bside her nia.. so sad la me.. haiz.. bt afta some hours, she is good ady when i say sorry 2 her.. i m reli stupid la, promise u, nex time i wont do d same thing 2 hurt u again….

i was quite hurt when i say d word.. haha, n there r some rumours say dat me n her start ady la.. so jz 2 clear everythin here, hvnt lo.. hvnt start yet.. if i hv started ady, i will officially announce it lo..

haha, o this thing cant do in a rush punya.. n thanks 4 my frens supports.. u guys r d bez.. wont let u guys down de..

nex year ba… A+