d life of d.S.1

on thursday nite, it was my english goup’s drama presentation.. Actually i wasn’t quite prepared 4 d drama as i was very tired. d whole week, i din actually hv a nice sleepo rest.
i keep on editin my movie. 2 my astonishment, d day b4 our drama presentation, i found out dat my last scene cannot being read by d software. so wat 2 do??
i bgin editin again la~
till 4 am in d morning..
i hvnt even memorize my script.. wat i think is jz i don wanna let my frens n my group members down. how i wanna tell my group members dat i hv spend so much time 4 d project n they r still sambil lewa wv d drama..
bt nvr min la, as long as i do my part, den ok ady,..
i no need 2 control other though i m d group leader.. i jz hope they know wat 2 do.
i oso hv a bossy member who only know 2 give comment bt dono how 2 do..
aiyoyo, pp like dis i really wanna scold bt i control my anger n i jz smile at him n amalkan hukum siong pertama"BIARKAN’ .. hehe, thanks mr siong 4 teachin me dis word..
haha
durin our drama, everybody enjoys it.. i can c from their faces dat they r laughin like mad guys.. i oso quite enjoy it.. i m not watchin my movie..
i m watchin their laughters.. i can really c dat they r enjoyin my movie clips..
some weeks b4, i was hvin pressure from my frens.. my other group’s project..
i c from their movie, they r really good.. bt d result turn out mine is better den them
i think actually their skill of editin is much mo better den me, mine jz got many funny parts nia…. nothin else..\
afta d drama, i feel like i can fly ady liao lo.. super hepi… haha, actually u can call me director d.S.1
other frens oso ask 4 my movie..
mayb nex time when there is like a week holiday, we will act a movie, asking d whole foundation students make 1..
n i think me n wenzhen will b d director n producer..
hehe, hope it will come true la…
haha

nowadays, i feel quite pressured. it’s quite different from wat i hv in previous years. i dono how 2 say bt it’s totally different. i feel like got many things need 2 b done n i hvnt done it.

now in uni, i still hv a lot of things i hvnt done yet. i think i hv a sickness ady. d sickness is i seldom done wat i hv said. in d previous years, i owes do wat i say, bt now, i din really do wat i say.

i say i wanna cycle 2 tronoh, bt i hvnt done it b4, i say i wanna tour round utp at nite, i oso hvnt done yet, i say i wanna study hard, n yet i oso hvnt done. i feel like life like dis is quite empty, din do d thing i say.

i oso don quite understand wat i say, mayb is my english got problem, o it is quite late now. being kacau by my frens in my room. my room is very popular rite now, i call it MELAKA cz it is quite strategic, owes got pp come here n chat. cant really concentrate on wat i wanna do.

i wan some privacy oso cant. when they r here, i feel like if i don layan them, i will b impolite, so i jz tok wv them n ignore my own stuff. i think there is where i mean by i don do d things i say. i’ll try 2 control d popularity of pp went inside my room

mayb i m too nice, a good fren>> i appreciate it, bt thanks. if u c me bz, pls know wat 2 do la. i don like 2 halau pp de, u shud know by urself..

i think dis is d biggest mental pressure i ever hv. bt, i think i’ll pressure d pressure… hope so la

now got many works need 2 b done, i still got a movie 2 make, moral notes 2 photostate, moral projects 2 b done, moral portfolios 2 b done, english essays 2 b done, club activites 2 b done.. a lot of things 2 b done. frens 2 care oso..

y i make my life so difficult? bt i like dis kind of life, it makes me a better d.S.1. a better fren, a better man, a better human. yep, sure. i wont regret wat i say. i like challenges, i like pressures.

"i m not d most intelligent o smartest brainhead around, bt i hv d strongest will, enthusiasm, perseverence and determination..dat’s y i m SPECIAL.."

i nvr doubt myself. i know my frens can feel d way, bt they jz don wanna express it.. haha, come on d.S.1…

holiday is comin… break is comin.. i’ll settle it usin d old fashion way, d human way, d d.S.1 way..

2day, i go 2 stadium wv my fren, ah tat. woohoo, u know who is he? mayb he is d bakal wakil negara in volleybo laer… hehe

bcz 2day is d volleybo selection 4 o d sukma nex year.. of cz my fren is very excited, bt he really worry a lot la, i think. he worry bout his studies if he get selected.. he oso worry bout his trainings la.. aiyoyo, he really worry too much la

bt i think he din xpress too much la, bt i can c from his speech n conversation wv him. i thought i m d only 1 who think a lot, bt he oso think 4 his future,, perhaps he is another d.S.1 la..haha

bt, when i was sittin there, see o those players playin n trainin volleybo, i feel like very admire o of them. especially when they jog 2gether, doin warmin up 2gether, smashin d bo, jumpin high in2 d air, i really envy them..

y they can play so good in sports.. bt i cant even play good in my own sport, futbo??? i think i m good, bt not good enough 2 compete wv others.. i think there r owes others who can play better den me..

another reason is dat mayb futbo is a popular game among d teenagers, so mayb there r other mo better player den me.. haha, bt i can feel dat my skill is really droppin now..

i m not playin 2 my full potential now, i m not concentratin now, i m not givin my bez shoot when i m playin now(though i score many goals, haha), i jz feel like i m not as serious as dulu when i play.

here, now, i started 2 play gk, defenders, started 2 stand there n rest a lito bit, started 2 run in every position, started 2 b lazzy, don run bek defence when needed.. y is dis happenin 2 me?? i really dono la.. mayb i really xiao kan d standard here la,, feel like i m better den any other 1.

so dat i m sambil lewa, bt afta nex week, o nex time, i play seriously… try 2 b like dulu.. i try 2 bring up my own standard n my fren’s standard.. upgrade d standards of futbo~~

unfortunately i like sudah injured.. i telah tarik my sheng jing xian afta tackled by a fren.. aiya, nvr min la, give me time 2 recover as well as 2 prepare myself 4 d nex game..

startin 2 wonder, when will i enter d UTP team n train d futbo like those pros??

i really dono, bt i hope i will. so i will try 2 prove my own value

今天我要用华语打字。。。哈哈，很久没有接触到母语了~~

今天是考试的最后一天，考完了整身就像轻了很多，真的走路好像会飘飘然似的。感觉十分的爽，虽然不懂考得好不好，但是考完了就算了，等考卷分了下来再打算。

考完试后又有ICC开会，这是我在大学第一个参加的团体，而且是一个职员，想当初我的应征是怎样过的都不知道，想想也很好笑。我穿着球装去跟人家谈天就中到了。哈哈，可能我有实力叻~~哈哈

当我在开会时，我完全没有心开会，因为我等一下和我的朋友庆祝另一个朋友的生日。我跟他们讲，我不懂开会会开到几点，可能会迟到或无法出席，叫他们先开始。但是他们说不要因为这一切是我打算的，好像没有我就没有么意义似的。

我想了想也觉得他们讲的话也蛮有道理的。于是大家就达成一个协议，若我在指定的时间没有出现，那他们就开始，不用等我。

还好我开会开得快，一个小时后就结束了。我立刻坐我的脚车MALOUDA到现场。我们在体育馆那里办一个小型惊喜生日派对，给他一个惊喜。嘻嘻。果然真的是一个惊喜。大家都作弄他，但是最后大家也帮他好好庆祝一番，场面十分热闹，我拿着手机纪录一切说发生的事，让它成为我和朋友之间的回忆。

他也很高兴。我和几个朋友上个星期下IPOH买一双鞋给他。那双鞋超酷的，看了心也痒痒的。好像我也要一双那样。那么我们总共有18个人公司，说起来也买了很多东西。蛋糕，鞋，汽水，零食。。。可以当作晚餐了啦~~~

看到他笑眯眯的脸，心里似乎感觉我所做的一切都很值得，虽然弄得自己累累的和没有足够的时间准备考试。但是我一看到他笑脸的那一幕，一切烦恼和考试的伤悲都没了。只觉得他生日时开心就好。心里也十分爽。

老实讲，这些全都是我的意见，一切都是我的主意，我的开始，我的行动，做了一半我的朋友才一起帮我办这个惊喜生日派对。还好有他们来帮我支撑着，不然我觉得我可能也不会帮他庆祝了。他过后就发讯息给我感谢我。我也觉得很开心，因为总算他懂得珍惜我们对他的一番心意和好意。

过后我们就在体育馆里踢球，踢得虽然很闷，但是大家也不懂干嘛踢得酱高兴。。。我稍候第二天2点早上到房间，我就不懂做么我很想把今天高兴的日子和人家分享。真的很想跟人家风险分享，要拨电话又不敢，怕人家睡觉，要发讯息给人家，但是勇气只在梦里。我想应该没有这个必要吧。

人家既然没空听我的故事，我只好再找别人听我的人生故事。想想为什么我就是这样的傻。。。这样的事情要跟人家讲。还有我本来是拜五早上的飞机回家，但是，现在没了，因为假期被取消。真不甘愿~~~

我想可能现在马来同胞在守斋puasa的当儿，我看我本身也要跟着他们一起puasa了。可能puasa两年，等到时间冲淡一切后在停止puasa……若…..算了，还是别吵人家了，放手吧,笨小孩。。。。别想酱多了，但是我真的还是不懂干嘛还是会继续想下去，它已是我记忆里的一个深刻的一条疤痕，补也补补回了，除非。。。。

算了，别想酱多了。哈哈

当我打完这篇心声的时候，我发现原来我的华语没有退步。义比呀呀义比义呀~~~~~期待下一个假期，有些事情还未办妥，所以，该走了。

矮泥有拜买赛～～～～哎呀都讲别想了，想酱多做么！！！气死我自己。。。

it’s been a while dat i know dis news ady la.. haha, so can say dat i was actually quite slow in reaction.. hehe (broken english)..

n till now, i m oso quite disappointed wv d UTP.. they shud tell us earlier bout d cancellation of d mid sem break which is in september.. actually i hv planned 2 do a lot of things durin d holiday in sibu..

got some surprise plannins 4 my frens who r hvin their b-day… bt now everythin seems 2 b 泡汤 le… aiyaya~~~ no mo surprise, no mo home sweet home, mo over, no mo holiday la~~~

bt nvr min la, luckily they got humanity la, by postponin d mid sem break 2 d hari raya break.. so our hari raya break is 2 weeks.. so clever la they… hehe, pandainya mereka,,

so i oso settled my airticket thing.. haha, jz cost me around RM125.. now every1 can fly… air asia. luckily i hv my dad settlin everythin wv me afta i giv him d maklumat-maklumat…

@ 1st, wanna bom them when i 1st heard d news.. bt i keep cool la, dat is d main thing dat i learn in UTP so far… not la, can say wat i learn so far.. i hv learnt d most value in myself… PATIENCE…

u hv 2 wait 4 ur chance… while u r waitin, observe d situation.. den think of a suitable solution 2 solve d matter… choose d bez way dat will minimum d damage so dat it will not hurt other’s feelings.

well, i think dat’s it… n i oso quite happy wv wat my frens write in d discussion… thanks, fren..

wat u think of me really motivates me… i hope u guys will do well in matrix, den apply 4 petronas come here study wv me here in UTP..

hehe, owes waitin~~~~ cant wait 2 go bek…